Hi reader/s (if any).
What up? Having a good time?
Anyway, that's not why I'm here, so I won't dwell on it (not that I don't care, but... well actually I kind of don't).
I'm gonna lay it down for y'all (not that I'm gonna say much that is groundbreaking, because I probably won't). I still don't know where my life is going and it kind of annoys me. Y'know? I want the world and I want it now, I'm sick of all my kicks, I'm sick of all the stiffs, sick of all the dips, and all those other lyrics suggesting things about things.
The big news is that I was in the running for a job in Sydney. A real full-time job. Something that would have given me the stability I so desire currently. I put my life on hold in case I got it, because they wanted someone right away. I told people I couldn't do things, or just said I'll let you know when I know (which I hate to do, hence wanting the stability in the first place).
I didn't get the job. I don't care so much about that. My issue was that I let them know that I needed to know ASAP to let people know if I was available to do things for them or not. I called on multiple occasions and couldn't get a straight response from anyone. I got told I would be called back, and it never happened (hence calling and asking on multiple occasions).
I was prepared to pack up my life and leave with a few days notice, and they didn't have the courtesy to give me even those few days.
On top of all that, I had an accident on the road two Fridays ago, which although minor (I hit the back of a ute at maybe 5-10km/h - he stopped dead after realising he was about to head the wrong way into a one way street), has put repairs out of practical monetary reach. So the holiday money I saved up is automatically needed to put aside for expensive repairs or new car (repairs are really expensive).
Now I have to risk getting a yellow sticker every time I drive, and I won't have enough money to get a reliable car for some time (weeks, months?).
Anyway, I'm still here, and still freelancing to the point where I'm not earning enough to get off Centrelink but dealing with these various projects makes it difficult to deal with what I need to do to keep getting my benefits (which I blame 100% on the fact that my career path isn't catered for by Employment Services).
In other news, I have been in a creative lull of late. It largely came down to having too much shit to do for other people. The minute I got any time free I had some good musical experiences, writing some decent tunes that I'm still fairly happy with (although not finished with). As I appear to be busy again, I don't think I'll get much out for a while. I started trying to force myself to write various things, but I haven't been very successful.
Now, the philosophical bit:
All of this probably means nothing, as in the grand scheme of things I have time on my side.
That also means nothing, because I still have to think about the immediate.
What do I do?
Save my $700 to grow to $3,000 and buy a decent car?
Save all the money for a move and fresh start?
Save all the money for an item I need (new bass amp/drum kit/computer/1000 other things)?
Throw caution to the wind and have a good holiday season and start again next year?
Other (please specify)?
Cool, whatevs.
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