There really needs to be an efficient system of letting all of your friends know the answers to the menial questions that come with finding out that you changed something about your appearance/made a big decision/similar. I know you want to ask these questions, and I'm sure you understand that everybody else will be asking the same thing, and I also understand that you kind of need to ask the question/s, but it shits me (and I'm sure you all feel the same way about it in your situations).

Perhaps like a journalist that asks you these necessary mundane questions shortly after something big happens and puts the interview up for all to see. You see someone in the street and they ask you "Does your head feel lighter?" and you say "You'll find my official response at my webpage. I'll be fielding no further questions on the matter."

Of course, this is impractical and unsociable, but it's a start.

Or you could just write it on your blog and those who don't read it can be directed there.

Things I don't understand

I don't understand people - which includes myself and my family. I don't understand what possible reason my brother has to take a whole box of my mother's prescription drugs. I don't understand why I'll probably never be able to ask him about it. I don't understand why I doom my relationships with girls I like to 'good friends'.. I don't understand my need to figure out all of the things I don't understand about my self without the help of others. I don't understand academics. I don't understand how individuality can both bring immense joy and also topple entire societies. I don't understand how hypocrites (including myself) don't realise their hypocrisy at the time. I pretty much don't understand 99% of life.

I understand that I will never understand most of what I mentioned, but I don't understand why.

Shaven, not stirred

It's gone down. My head is exposed. A chapter endeth. I say 'who gives a shit'.

I don't think my life has changed at all because of it, except my showers are shorter and my hair is no longer in my face when I drive or eat. Actually, I had the first shiver on my skull for a long time driving home last night with the window open. Just for a second my head was cold, which was a tad odd.

My next goal is to collect enough money to reach my target of $1000. I am currently about $180 away from this, so this is utterly achievable before I give all of the money in at the end of the month.

Following that, collect everything people actually pledged, which is about another $280 on top of the target. This is purely up to the people who pledged to get off their arses. I will send messages with all the options and hopefully honour wins out.

Following this, is to push the people who said that they would support me but didn't nominate an actual pledge amount (some of these have paid up already). It would be amazing if I could send in $1500 when it comes to the end of the month.

The strange love child of a pair of different shovels

Busy busy busy

People to do, things to see.

I'm apparently a 1st AD and producer on a project with no experience in either role, no desire to do them, and 'clients' who have no idea why this shouldn't happen. Luckily for them I want to see the project happen and need editing credits.

Speaking of which, lord give me a gig editing a WAAPA film and pay me for it. Andrew Lewis seemed strangely upbeat when I mentioned it to him. If the writers get $500 I'm hoping for the same. Gonna need it. Actually give me two films. I'll take a discount on the second.

I must chat with my DOP on the film I'm making and get some shots sorted. I must also get in contact with the guy who wanted to 1st AD (after the guy who wants to produce gets back to me because I only have his details).

Also, the same person who is DOPing my film is directing another film I'm doing sound on next week. I need to sort that out.

As for sound, Light as a Feather pushed my physical limits on the weekend. Overtime is not fun on no sleep, especially when you're not being paid. Got voice recording tomorrow night, then off the film until the weekend. Also must find a replacement for Friday. Shave during the day, looking after the dog at night.

Scriptwriting class could be a good move for me. Friends on the WTV board, ideas flowing and to be almost fully formed during the semester. I'd love to get support for a series, and I happen to also have a boner for achievable projects, so this may just be a winner.

Too many pies, not enough fingers.

Does this mean I'm a blogger now?

OK, so I'm not writing as often as I urinate, but it's heading there.

So I'm writing this as a record of me saying that I'm getting in gear to put my director's hat on properly and make a short film that involves planning and thought and script editing and rehearsals, and shot-lists.

I'm really motivated to show that I can make a good film without being a scholarly twat. I even have crew on-board. A producer, 1st AD, and DOP is a pretty good start, I think.

Not to mention a handsome son-of-a-gun who I want to bone in the male lead role.

If I play my cards right I'll have a film before mid-year that I can use to start actually getting money to make stuff.

I'm not a monkey

Although in a certain light I kind of look like one.

So, I'm just in general thinking about people that I know and my circle of friends and coming to some conclusions.

It seems that because of study/film stuff that the majority of my social time is spent with film people that I work with. I'm not necessarily saying that this is bad, because I've met some really awesome people from film-based connections.

It just seems that I'm doing all of this stuff and I don't have time for my other friends, which I don't really like It's kind of especially bad because I just feel as if I don't have the energy to hang with anyone I'm not directly involved in a project with. This scares me because I'm quite possibly turning into a workaholic and a permanent bitch to whoever I'm doing stuff for.

I rarely see my family because I'm out all day and I come back then eat and sleep, which is also causing tension because I just don't have time to pull my weight around the house.

On top of that, the time I actually spend playing music is forever dwindling. I'm always out so I can never really jam, and until recently I didn't really have a guitar in working order to mess around when I have a spare few minutes.

Hopefully now I have my acoustic in working order I will be able to spend some time writing and practicing and start getting some solo gigs or just taking to the streets and busking (played an impromtu gig on Wednesday last week and bombed pretty hard due to no practice).

Eh, here's hoping the future is looking up, although I do have 2 projects to finish sound for, this dance project to organise and edit, and my short that I want to get going in early April.

The Moondynes

Fuck yes!

Recording that album was good times. Most fun session I've ever had. 3 men, a few beers, some goon, and a bunch of songs.

Some of my most naturally awesome sounding recording, despite (or because of) it's flaws, and it stands as testament that in one 20 hour sitting the 3 of us could record and mix 11 songs to a standard that one can be proud of (in a bastard child sort of way).

The fact that I'd never heard half of the songs before playing them and they developed a life of their own as we recorded them was just something that I am in awe of.

I'm not blowing my horn here, just thinking about how musicians with a connection can just feel what's going on and make something unique happen.